Bad Habit

When you caught my eye sometime ago, I was unaware that you would continue to linger through my body as you have. I decided to sample you and what you had to offer. You entered my life and I did not know what to except. I took you in as something for the moment not realizing that you would become a habit; a bad habit that I find myself engaging in on a regular bases. Our first encounter was slow, soothing, and enlighten. And the next few encounters would carry the same characteristics. As time went on and the encounters became more frequent and comfortable, the need for you became more and more intense.

You became something I wanted and felt as though I needed once or twice a week physically and everyday mentally and emotionally. A bad habit that was getting worse but very much desired. As my need for you increased, I begun to since the feeling was mutual…

With that heavy desire that has grown, it has also brought on the realization that you are a habit that I will never fully get to enjoy the way my mind and body prefers. Should that knowledge make me not constantly want to surround myself with everything about you?

In reality, I have no future plans or thoughts of pulling myself away from you unless you become harmful to my health or begin to interfere in my life goals…

Until then, I will continue to embrace the fact that you are this bad habit that I cannot and don’t want to shake.